Monday, August 24, 2009


It really wasn't too difficult getting up this morning - I actually woke up around 7 and waited for my alarm to go off at 7:15. I even had time to blow dry my hair properly, pack my lunch, and eat a yogurt before I headed out! I have the worst knot ever in my back right now, near my shoulder blade. Is it even I knot? It just hurts.

Speaking of the knot...I've narrowed down wedding dates (again). This is the trouble with being an indecisive person. I guess it could be worse...I could be indecisive about getting married altogether! Lucky for me I'm indecisive about the little things in life, like what day I should get married and where to go for a honeymoon. I've decided to give up on the labor day weekend wedding even though it was a cute idea being that we met labor day weekend but I don't especially want to get married and then have classes start two days later. And being that I'll be heading off to grad school also, that means that the next free labor day weekend wouldn't be until 3 or 4 years from I'd rather not wait that long. Besides, my parents did have the valid point that a lot of people use that weekend to go up north and such.

So the dates that I am going to force Mark to choose tonight are as follows...July 17, July 24, and August 28. I personally prefer July 17. July 24 is the day after Adriana's birthday but when I mentioned that to my mom she was like "so?" but I still kind of would rather there be some space. August 28 would work, there would be enough time then before school starts but July 17 would mean even MORE time before school starts so I'd prefer that one. And it's not TOO soon in summer so that I can still take another class spring semester like I plan. Then everything would work out perfectly. Why am I even asking for his opinion? I should have just called and put a hold on July 17.

The next thing I want to do after that is booked is be sure to call up my church and ask if the pastor's actually do wedding ceremonies outside of the church (because I want a garden wedding at the venue). If they don't, I guess I need to search out a pastor somewhere else...which I actually have an idea of one I found on because they have listings of EVERYTHING.

I seriously think WAY TOO MUCH. I have an overactive brain. I'm constantly thinking about this wedding and about school and about after school life and about everything that I won't need to worry about for years! Somehow I need to learn to calm down and live IN the moment, which I am horrible at. Even more important now that it is really hitting on me hard how fragile and uncertain life can be. There has been way too much death this summer...and not even all of it touching my life personally. But really makes me want to stop worrying about the future so much because who knows what the future will hold? All I know is that I am alive right now in this moment. Everything else about my future is a little fuzzy.

My posts are seeming to be annoyingly long when I don't update for certain periods of time. I enjoy writing a lot though. I have missed writing. My classes this past semester never even involved much writing at all - so I'm probably rusty! My blogging skills might be a little shaky. I apologize.

That's all for now I think. I will update much more frequently especially about all things wedding related! Hopefully anyone who is reading will enjoy my little squeals of girly delight about it all.

Friday, August 21, 2009

upcoming events

Somehow, summer has flown by more quickly than I ever imagined it could have. I don't know what I was expecting - I have been working anywhere from 35 to 45 hours per week at two separate jobs. At least I got a couple vacations - Silver Lake and Cedar Point, which I just returned from. I love Cedar Point. It was a pretty good time, despite some semi-drama and some inclement weather for a slight portion of our day in the park. Otherwise I had a fabulous time. Rollercoasters might be one of my favorite things in the world.

School is coming up very quickly now, a little less than two weeks! I rented a few of my books off today but I didn't have much money in which to order. I spent about a hundred dollars on three of the books plus shipping, which isn't even that good considering one was a novel and one was an APA style book. I might send back that last one if I find out that I can get the same information just from online or something. It does say required though so who knows. That leaves me with ten more books to get. Yes, ten. (I'm taking an English class and we're reading like 6 novels, one of which I already read senior year but I'll need to reread it anyways).

I'm hoping I can figure out today how much I should take out in extra loan so that I can get some money back and buy the rest of those books. I want to buy them asap but I won't get another check for a few weeks. I'll have to look into that.

Anyways I work the rest of the weekend unfortunately. I don't think I'll be getting a day off until next Saturday when we have our family picnic and talk about wedding stuff and make some actual FINAL decisions because I just can't seem to pinpoint when the best day will be for the wedding. And the week after that school will start so there will be less work going on.

That's basically it. There's going to be a girls night next week which I am very excited about. And Labor Day weekend I am hoping that Mark and I can go to Arts, Beats, and Eats since it'll be two years since we met there. And then our two year anniversary is coming up next month which is exciting so yay!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

simple life

This week already feels like it's been long and I'm sleepy, but I will update anyways. Today was my 8-hour workday at the internship which always feels super long, and wasn't too productive either it seemed. Tuesdays we always have morning staff meetings and there was only one briefing that a caseworker did on a kid which is really weird. Then the other intern and I went to see two of the girls we didn't get a chance to see yesterday, and only one was home. And then we saw another kid at CV, and then I went to court for a few hours again with another caseworker. Then we had an appointment to meet the new kid and sign him to phase 1, and I read most of his file, and that was really it. Maybe that SOUNDS productive but it didn't feel like it at all compared to yesterday for example. Thursday I'm going to be the only one working (Ms. Lawrence won't be there either) so that should be interesting. I wonder where I should go/what I should do.

I've been playing the Sims 3 when I get home from work like clockwork lately. I guess that's in place of homework which I don't have to do yet (because school hasn't started up again). And in place of working at DQ after work because I just do NOT want to work twice in one day, it's too annoying and tiring. And in place of wedding planning, although I did do some guest list creation/budgeting today and talked to my mom about some stuff with it. I figured out that my new improved budget will cover everything for about 180 people with like 400 bucks to spare which sadly is not enough for a honeymoon, unless we cut people out or cut other expenses...OR I found that you can register on websites where people give you money for a honeymoon instead of buying you stuff from Macy's or wherever we would decide so I think that is a possible option. And if that was the case I was thinking I might sign up for both the honeymoon website and a regular store in case the less technology-savvy relatives and others would rather just go to the store and look up our registry. We could always use SOME stuff too, just a few necessities like mixing bowls and regular plates and bowls not the cheap plastic ones we currently have that might give us cancer.

I'm about to go to bed now though I'm SLEEPY! I had the weirdest dream last night that was kind of scary I just thought of; I hope it doesn't repeat itself since I just thought of it. Not SCARY because I never have scary dreams really but it was weird and a little unsettling when I woke up (during the dream I was weirded out but not scared). It was some conspiracy going on where a guy was keeping a bunch of people hostage in the attic and blocked off roads and was flooding the area around us and like EVERYONE was somehow in on it, I don't know. I love dreams, so fascinating. Isn't it funny how no one knows why people dream? I think that's so cool. I would like to know why of course, but I like the fact that it's a mystery. Makes it even cooler.

Monday, August 3, 2009

everyday stuff.

Life lately is all the same, day in and day out. I'm either working or interning. And then coming home and doing nothing basically. That's about it. Obsessing over wedding stuff isn't even that fun anymore although updates with all that have happened but I don't feel like sharing much. I'm starting to just wish that school would START already so that I'd at least get to go to school as opposed to mostly just working all the time. I don't want to work all the time! We're going to Cedar Point soon so that is exciting.

Right now Mark and I are making brownies. As if I didn't have enough junk food I wanted to eat all the time! I love food too much. I can't honestly think of too many foods that I DON'T like! :( bleh